Wednesday, January 14, 2009

the crowned embrace?

the scales are mine, i weigh and measure,
this heart i wont let hold me down,
its all a line of pain and pleasure,
for now i wear this thorny crown.

ignore the pain!
embrace the nothingness!
ignore the pain!
ignore the pain!

to point the finger at the others,
you find their faults soon to discover,
its all a thought of what you need,
and the fault lies neatly in the seeds,
YOU PLANTED!!

ignore the pain!
embrace the others!
ignore the pain!
you may discover!
nothing!
nothing!
nothing!

this bloody skull, capped with a crown of thorns
its not so bold, to most its a look of scorn!
accepting of this life in pain,
its all in the minds of those deemed sane,
but with this thorny crown upon my head,
see i am already dead!!!

FOR THE!!!
scales are mine, i weigh and measure,
this heart i wont let hold me down,
its all a line of pain and pleasure,
for now i wear this thorny crown!!!

ignore the pain!
ignore the pain!
embrace the nothingness!
embrace the nothingness!
ignore the pain!
ignore the pain!

sulfer-slipknot insights

this song stands at the top of how i feel on this plane of existance. perhaps that makes me completely insane to find solace in such hate filled words. only time and hard work will tell...

i will no longer run. i will stand and spit in the face of anyone who tells me i cannot. i will prove myself to myself, noone else. for far to long have i been searching for approval of others. now its me and only me. my next post will be a song i have been working on for a few days.


My Guilt and My Shame always sell me short - always feel the same
And My Face and My Soul always wear me thin - always under control
But the longest hours you'll have in your life
Are the ones you sit through to know if you're right
So I'll wait, but I pray that I'm wrong
Because I think I know what's going on

So Let Me Get This Straight... the only will is my own
I do whatever I want and stay alone
All my decisions make it untouchable and tainted
I'm gonna suffer for the rest of my life
But I will always find a way to survive
I'm not a failure, but I know what it's like
I can take it or leave it... or die

STAY - You don't always know where you stand
'Til you know that you won't run away
There's something inside me that feels
Like Breathing in Sulfur...

My Life is undone - and I'm a sinner to most but a sage to some
And my Gods are Untrue - I'm probably wrong, but I'm better than you
And the longest hours I've had in my life
Were the ones I went through to know I was right
So I'm safe, but I'm a little outside
I'm gonna laugh when I'm buried alive

STAY - You don't always know where you stand
'Til you know that you won't run away
There's something inside me that feels
Like Breathing in Sulfur...

LIKE BREATHING IN SULFUR

STAY - You don't always know where you stand
'Til you know that you won't run away
There's something inside me that feels
Like Breathing in Sulfur...

LIKE BREATHING IN SULFUR